As an addict releases themselves from a vice, they suffer great withdrawals as their body gets used to functioning without the said "drug". Any form of rehabilitation requires great sacrifice and suffering. In the middle of it all, the physical starts to wear down and the psychological starts to kick in. The mind wonders, "Is this worth anything?" "What will happen next?" "Am I good to go, or how much longer must I go through this?"
Sometimes that's the hardest part of kicking a habit. The desire to get what you want and do what you want is so much greater. Everything you think about is all of a sudden in great detail.
But then in the middle of my cleanse, my release, my re-hab, the Lord said, "Let go of the "old" to receive the "new". Let go of the "good" so you may experience the "better". Take a risk for God and He will bless you."
I'm still trying to digest what this means. I need to know that whatever is going on in my heart and mind coincides with God's. I don't want to make drastic changes in my life nor do I want to dismiss what could be a golden nugget of wisdom and the greatest change made in my life.
Please keep me in your prayers as I keep you in mine.