Friday, September 27, 2013

dream sequence: sweats are sexy

So I always tell myself I need to blog about my dreams.  I'd write them down, but let's be real - it's a bit easier and faster to do this before I start at my work emails.  If I wait til I get home later that night, most of the deets would have been forgotten.

Anyway, last night I had a dream about a guy that made me smile.  He was a tall, Filipino (I think), dorky dude.  He was cute.  He had charisma.  Anyway, we were all out for the night and just hanging with friends.  I think we were at a lounge having drinks.  At one point we were sitting next to each other and I had my left forearm on his leg with my hand on his knee.  I left to get something, came back, and subconsciously ended up putting my hand on top of his hand (which was on his leg).  We weren't a couple or anything and I felt like we were about to hold hands, but then I felt this like "oh no I didn't mean to make a move....yet I wanted to make a move...." struggle going on in my mind.  Anyway it was semi-awkward, so I ended up moving my hand and grabbing something on the table (my drink perhaps?).  There was definitely a moment though - a spark.  Later that night, he asked me if I wanted to leave.  The ask was totally not a move, just a friendly thing, so I said sure.  I think we ended up going back to my place because I changed into sweats to get comfortable.  We were just going to watch TV or something.  Super casual, no weird intentions.  But as I was in the bathroom fixing my hair in the mirror, he walked in and said "you look hot in sweats."  Ok THAT was a move.  It was cute, I giggled.  He hugged me from behind.  I played with his hair which was all of a sudden randomly sweaty (ummm yeah kinda gross, I know) but I guess that's what happens when he gets nervous.  He got shy about me touching his hair, but I thought "eh - I can deal with this" and just smiled.

Anyway, it was all cute and that was that.  Oh, dreams, thanks for making me not stress about work last night!

Tuesday, September 10, 2013


"It’s been said that it takes 40 days to change a bad habit."

40 days in the dessert.

40 day fast for Lent.

40 has a sense of completion in my Spiritual world. Here comes a couple who is about to take the amount of days to change a habit and see if they fall in love. Friends first. Good friends, I might add. I read day 1 and I wanted to skip immediately to day 40. I just want to know if they made it or not...

But just as their journey was forty days long, I guess I'll read along - one entry per day - and document how I feel about their situation.

Great experiment...makes me curious.

Maybe at the end of it all, I'll share about everything I feel about friends dating and making something more out of it.

For now, I will just share my excitement for these two friends to jump and cross the line. John Legend sang about it. Justin and Ashton did movies about it. There's always a conclusion in my mind about friends becoming...well more than friends.

To know more about the project, see the main link:


Day 1 reflection: Jessica and Tim start off by sending each other something cute to kick off the 40 day project. Both are feeling excited. Right now, I'm Team J. I'm all about looking for the right guy to settle with and partner up with for the rest of my life. Tim seems to be that guy that we're warned to watch out for: non-committal, same cycle/pattern of dating, habitual dater. Why watch out for this type? Because they quit before they can even see if anything real will happen. Well, he's stuck for 40 days so let's see if he overcomes his pride and falls in love, or if he resents her throughout the process.