Monday, September 1, 2014
dream sequence: a wedding
I woke up the next day and all of a sudden I was in all white silk pajamas, but found a small stain - I guess it was that time of the month? I covered it up, walked outside to find my groom/husband in the same suite as the bridal party. Everyone was hugging me and congratulating me but I felt weird waking up alone after my wedding day. I tried walking my way to my husband to hug him but as he was about to hug me, his "best friend" (some white blonde chick) came in between and tried to hug him at the same time to say congrats. So there was a reeeeally awkward three way hug. But then I still didn't get to hug my said husband, instead the girl tried to hug me and congratulate me but it was SO AWKWARD. Her hug basically said "we aren't friends yet but I'll get there." And I said to her, "It's not that difficult to give someone a meaningful hug." I really think she was trying to prove a point to him.
Anyway - there we are standing as husband as wife, yet I felt as though he didn't want to be married yet. He didn't mind that we were married, but there was no effort on his part. He basically was just there and I didn't feel any love back. It felt like I forced him to do this and he agreed to...just cuz. As if it were an arrangement and he was just holding up his end of the bargain.
Worst feeling ever.
On top of that, my best friend didn't come to my wedding. I feel like she forgot, but I called her days prior asking for help and no response. Yvette was wondering where she was but didn't want to bring it up because it was my wedding day, but she noticed that Jenssen wasn't there.
Then I woke up.
Went back to sleep and met Kevin Hart but didn't want him to think I cared, so I just walked passed him after saying hello.
Then I woke up again.
Happy Labor day!